So it has been a few days since I have written, but let me tell you, life has been hectic! School has taken over my life this week! I had a Microbiology test on wednesday, and I also had to take the TEAS test. The TEAS is a test I had to take to get into nursing school. Apparently I did super super great on it! I was ecstatic to hear it. I was so nervous going into the test, because standardized tests are not my forte. I scored above average on all of the sections. I could not have asked for a better day! But, believe me, I prayed super hard for God to get me through it. And, He did!
I got out the camera yesterday and tried shooting some of the sunset. It is super hard shooting a good sunset. I played around with ISO and exposure.. but no shots turned out super great. But, maybe one day I will learn! :)I will add some of my favorites from the past couple of days as soon as I can!
So I have been obsessed with the group Tenth Avenue North lately. Their music is really good and uplifting. I watched the music video of the song 'By your side', that they did along with Billy Graham. It is a real eye opener. It starts out showing a man standing in the rubble of his house. He said that everything was destroyed and he had nothing left. Then it showed other various disasters (Katrina, 9/11. missing children.. etc). You could see the hurt in the people's eyes. I mean, I cannot imagine standing in the rubble of everything that had represented my life. Everything that was a sign of my existence. I think I would feel lost, not knowing where to start. I should probably get some type of fireproof safe for all of my irreplaceable items. Such as pictures of my grandparents and family, my grandmothers jewelry, or anything special like that. I think I could handle loosing most of my 'stuff'. But, if I lost things that help me remember my grandma, it would kill me. I often find myself laying in bed at night thinking what I would grab if I had 5 minutes to get out of the house. I know I would grab my camera, pictures, grandmas jewelry, my favorite stuffed animals. But, does any of this stuff really matter? I think loosing everything would show you that life is more important than stuff. We are the most important things on this earth.God loves us so much and has beautiful plans for everyone if they will just listen.Loosing everything has got to be a very humbling experience. Everything would not be gone though. God would still be there throughout the storm.
God does not care what brand of clothes we wear, or how much jewelry we have. But, in today's world it is so easy to get wrapped up in the whole 'image' thing. I am not pointing fingers. I know I have done my fair share of worrying about getting the newest item. But, I am working hard to change that. I have done a lot of changing the past 3 years. I have lost touch with people that I used to be close with. But, sometimes to become a better person, you have to give up people that bring you down. I still love those people, but I cannot be around them anymore. I know they think I do not care about them. But, I do. I care so much about them. But, with everything that I struggle with, I am not strong enough to hang out with them. I have to become a stronger person before I can put myself in some of those situations. I working so hard on it.
These lyrics are so powerful:
Why are you striving these days
Why are you trying to earn grace
Why are you crying
Let me lift up your face
Just don't turn away
Why are you looking for love
Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough
To where will you go child
Tell me where will you run
To where will you run
And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you -Everything that I have been through these past couple of years has definitely shaped me into who I am today. I know that love is all that matters. Love others and show them the way. When your whole life comes crumbling down, turn to Him. It is the one and only way. Over and out..sarah elizabeth
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